你最近好吗?..
我不知道你在哪里, 不知道你去了哪里, 也不知道你会不会来这里,
但是我还是要这样写下去,写看到你看到为止...
翻着我们的照片,
去年的我们笑得很甜, 但也带着一点说不出的痛..
请你原谅我的不告而别, 那是因为惭愧的我无法再面对你.
思念你, 对我是一个会呼吸的痛.. 很痛很痛..
看着你哭泣的脸, 对着我说再见.
来不及听见, 也不想逼你留下.
一迅间, 你已走得很远很远...
也许你已经放弃我, 也许很难回头.
是我自己错过, 是我不懂.
我知道你的痛, 是我所给的承诺,
很多还未实显的承诺.
我知道坚持要走是因为我无数次受伤你,
但请你回头,
我会陪你一直走到最后.
如果你要走, 请你记得我.
如果很难过, 请你忘了我.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Hi friends
Yours truly went to Ikea twice for the past 4 days.. can you believe it?!!..
Made over my room slowly, which is part of my 'make-over' process! (I heard someone say 'FINALLY'..... HAHAHAHHA)
Sorry for not being responsive to your SMSs and phone calls, again.
Been feeling worn out and spent from.. CANNOT TELL....
Also been on a rather tight schedule lately, no time for R & R!.. Still hunting and waiting for a suitable job offer! PRAY PRAY PRAY!
Ought to relax for awhile! But crap, gotta work later and tomorrow!
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Was rushing on to someplace on a cab yesterday, and I thought I must have looked visibly distraught.
The nice aunty struck up a conversation with me and after that I discovered that she was also a christian from this church.
I didn't tell her much, because we didn't know each other, and she told me about this article she read on the newspaper, which is:
'把过去的自己, 踩在脚下...'
Which literally means taking your past and stepping it on your feet and walk on. (quite a sucky direct translation I know..)
She was a total stranger but yet her kindness & genuine-ness encouraged me a lot and it made a difference.
Sometimes God speaks to us through people, we just have to slow down and listen.
Have you thanked God today for a new day??..
Made over my room slowly, which is part of my 'make-over' process! (I heard someone say 'FINALLY'..... HAHAHAHHA)
Sorry for not being responsive to your SMSs and phone calls, again.
Been feeling worn out and spent from.. CANNOT TELL....
Also been on a rather tight schedule lately, no time for R & R!.. Still hunting and waiting for a suitable job offer! PRAY PRAY PRAY!
Ought to relax for awhile! But crap, gotta work later and tomorrow!
--------------------------------------------------------------
Was rushing on to someplace on a cab yesterday, and I thought I must have looked visibly distraught.
The nice aunty struck up a conversation with me and after that I discovered that she was also a christian from this church.
I didn't tell her much, because we didn't know each other, and she told me about this article she read on the newspaper, which is:
'把过去的自己, 踩在脚下...'
Which literally means taking your past and stepping it on your feet and walk on. (quite a sucky direct translation I know..)
She was a total stranger but yet her kindness & genuine-ness encouraged me a lot and it made a difference.
Sometimes God speaks to us through people, we just have to slow down and listen.
Have you thanked God today for a new day??..
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
AM NOT DEAD... STILL ALIVE AND KICKING...
Sorry for the lack of updates.
My apologies.. especially to my friends who come here regularly.
Decided to come back from my hiatus after about a month or so. I felt it to be a good time to put aside everything, and take some time off to do some serious thinking. About the future, and the past as well.
As for the future, well, need I say more, just pray for me friends! Met with some 'obstacles' recently and was rather down. So, please be NICE to me when you see me, IF YOU HAPPEN TO SEE ME THAT IS...
My friends say I'm like BATMAN, sometimes can find me, sometimes I seem to disappear into thin air. HAHA, ok, back to serious sh*t!
As for the past, when I looked back, I thought about the things I shouldn't have done, and the things which I should have done but didn't.
DO I HAVE REGRETS??
Well, definitely a big YES.
I regretted putting time, effort and love in places/people, who/that are just wrong.
And I also regretted all the silly things that I did, being stubborn, rebellious at times, and all the trouble I got myself into.
All the time, effort and love should be given to more 'productive things' like church, and to the one who really loved me.
Obviously I'm not proud of it! But just that I've learnt a lot from all the stupid things I've done. Seems like I always have to make mistakes to learn! But I must be thankful too, I guess! I'd rather fall and learn, than to never fall, and don't know what/where I've gone wrong!
I've also unknowingly earned myself a bad name and reputation because of my misdeeds in the past. Since secondary school days! I was a recalcitrant teenager who never learns! My goodness, what have I become??!! I even have to go for counselling sessions with a social worker for a grave mistake that I've committed! And I was the only one in secondary three that have to speak to this very nice and pretty lady social worker for almost a year!
Need I say more?? After that, I continued my bad ways and never seem to learn! It must have been tough for my family, especially my aunt who have to constantly talk to me and go down to school to talk to the principal to promise him that I will change when he threathened to expel me for the 10000th time.
Seriously, that wasn't a past to remember! Or even think about!
And you know what's worse?? When you've finally decided to change, or turn over a new leaf, they refuse to give you the 93897123th chance. They have long given up on you, like leaving you to rot. OmiGawD, I tell you, that jolted me to my senses and woke me up big time!
But I believe I'm a better, and a changed person now! Just ask my friends, especially Ann! haha ;) They can all vouch for it!
After all that tumultuous and eventful past, I believed I've passed my testsssss. But that doesn't give me the right to just stop where I am! I would think twice before doing anything that will hurt those around me.
I'm thankful for a new start, or startssss, and friends and relatives who choose to forgive and forget my past. It wasn't easy for them. It really wasn't. I mean, bible says must forgive 70 times 7 times, just ask yourself, how many times can you forgive someone?? Maybe twice, or those who are very tolerant can forgive up to 5 or 6 times?? Honestly and earnestly ask yourself the above question!
Time for me to grow up.
My apologies.. especially to my friends who come here regularly.
Decided to come back from my hiatus after about a month or so. I felt it to be a good time to put aside everything, and take some time off to do some serious thinking. About the future, and the past as well.
As for the future, well, need I say more, just pray for me friends! Met with some 'obstacles' recently and was rather down. So, please be NICE to me when you see me, IF YOU HAPPEN TO SEE ME THAT IS...
My friends say I'm like BATMAN, sometimes can find me, sometimes I seem to disappear into thin air. HAHA, ok, back to serious sh*t!
As for the past, when I looked back, I thought about the things I shouldn't have done, and the things which I should have done but didn't.
DO I HAVE REGRETS??
Well, definitely a big YES.
I regretted putting time, effort and love in places/people, who/that are just wrong.
And I also regretted all the silly things that I did, being stubborn, rebellious at times, and all the trouble I got myself into.
All the time, effort and love should be given to more 'productive things' like church, and to the one who really loved me.
Obviously I'm not proud of it! But just that I've learnt a lot from all the stupid things I've done. Seems like I always have to make mistakes to learn! But I must be thankful too, I guess! I'd rather fall and learn, than to never fall, and don't know what/where I've gone wrong!
I've also unknowingly earned myself a bad name and reputation because of my misdeeds in the past. Since secondary school days! I was a recalcitrant teenager who never learns! My goodness, what have I become??!! I even have to go for counselling sessions with a social worker for a grave mistake that I've committed! And I was the only one in secondary three that have to speak to this very nice and pretty lady social worker for almost a year!
Need I say more?? After that, I continued my bad ways and never seem to learn! It must have been tough for my family, especially my aunt who have to constantly talk to me and go down to school to talk to the principal to promise him that I will change when he threathened to expel me for the 10000th time.
Seriously, that wasn't a past to remember! Or even think about!
And you know what's worse?? When you've finally decided to change, or turn over a new leaf, they refuse to give you the 93897123th chance. They have long given up on you, like leaving you to rot. OmiGawD, I tell you, that jolted me to my senses and woke me up big time!
But I believe I'm a better, and a changed person now! Just ask my friends, especially Ann! haha ;) They can all vouch for it!
After all that tumultuous and eventful past, I believed I've passed my testsssss. But that doesn't give me the right to just stop where I am! I would think twice before doing anything that will hurt those around me.
I'm thankful for a new start, or startssss, and friends and relatives who choose to forgive and forget my past. It wasn't easy for them. It really wasn't. I mean, bible says must forgive 70 times 7 times, just ask yourself, how many times can you forgive someone?? Maybe twice, or those who are very tolerant can forgive up to 5 or 6 times?? Honestly and earnestly ask yourself the above question!
Time for me to grow up.
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