Trying..

Proving ourselves to be happy at the expense of others,

do not actually make us happier,

it just makes us stronger, or braver.

It won't take long to realise that by diluting your emotions and thoughts, or chucking away your pain.

It makes you crave more, more of happiness, more of everything nice and good.

Just like how a drug addict craves for heroine.
But this time, the addiction is prolonged to eternity. It never ends.

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A question was thrown my way:

Friend: How have you been? It's been so long already.

Me: Yeah, nothings' changed.

How time flies. The toughest 1 year of my life, and perhaps many more to come.

All, by my hands I ruined everything.

I could vividly remember and flashbacks started to play.

It's just like attending a wake of someone dearest to you.

And you know there's nothing you can do anymore.

I make it a point to pray everyday.

It indeed has changed me, in one way or another.

Change is sometimes not as bad as it seems.

Just want to encourage you, and also myself, and to all who are feeling down. There will always be moments or events that occur in our lives that threatens to tear us apart.

"When you feel like giving up,

remember why you held on for so long in the first place."

God is with us, He always will.

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge Him,

and He will make your paths straight."
Proverbs 3:5-6